Movies!

So, I'm watching Jane Eyre again. mmmmm. delish.

Made me think of this post: http://invisiblob.blogspot.com/2007/01/in-her-heart.html

ahh... i used to write poetry!!!! Not anymore.. at least.. lately I haven't been writing much of anything.

I'm supposed to be writing a 50000 word novel... but I'm not getting very far. My stupid writing is so frustrating!!! >_< oh well.

I love Jane Eyre. Almost as much as I love Phantom of the Opera. hmm.. toss-up!! Can I act in both someday? Please? With loads of cherries and ice cream?? mmm.

Change

I changed my layout!!! I got tired of green. I only wish there were more cool choices for Blogger.... all the choices they have are pretty boring. >_<

Ugh. My stomach isn't THAT strong.

I'm researching squirrel meat today for my upcoming persuasive speech in which I will attempt to persuade the entire class to eat squirrel meat. Hypocritically, I don't think I would really eat squirrel meat unless I was desperate and/or in a foreign country. haha. but they don't need to know that.

anyways.. came across this guy's blog: http://www.beastfeaster.co.uk/

Basic premise: this guy is eating 52 different types of "meat" in 52 days. *shivers* some are normal... many not quite so. If you think you have a tough stomach, then be sure to check out the post about eating worms.

Oh, and definitely read the one about eating squirrel meat.

All I can say is that it is a good thing I am working on this many hours AFTER lunch has digested. *grimaces*

PLAY!!!

I got to play Volleyball last night!!! I was soooo happy. =] I'm really sore today, but it was totally worth it.

I also found out more about playing intramural sports so I'm considering doing that next semester.. or next year. mmm.

Now if only I had a piano.. then I could really be perfectly happy. <3

A Reason to Sigh

College is depressing me.

I realize even more how worthless I am. What can I do? Nothing! There are 11000 people here who can do everything better than I can! I am not very good at anything and I have no one goal for my life. I'm just living. Why bother?

I know I am not supposed to ask questions like that. I know I am supposed to be very positive and confident all the time. *deep voice* Of course I have talents unique to myself! Of course I am here for a reason! I am a very important part of this universe!

*laughs* It's amazing the difference between logic and reality. In reality, the song goes like this: "Anything I can do, they can do better. They can do ANYTHING better than I."

Again, I ask, so why bother?

Honestly, I am jealous of people who have one goal in mind and go for it with a single-minded determination. I can't do that. I want everything. I want to do everything. I want to be everything. What does that leave me with? Nothing.

And that, my friends and readers, is my reason to sigh.

Roommates?

Last night I was telling my roommates about some of the places I would take them if they ever wanted to visit me in California. Immediately they started talking about how they would get there.

"A road trip, maybe? ooh.. that would be fun!"

I brought up the fact that it is very expensive to travel across the country. They said they knew and went on planning. Yes, it's expensive.. but so what? When or if the funds come in.. they are willing to visit me all the way across the country!

I have to admit, I was stunned.

I have known these two girls for just a little over a month. A month and four days.

You might be saying to yourself, "so what?" Let me put this into perspective for you.

When I left home, people I had known for 4 years or more basically said to me "We won't visit you, but you can visit us anytime!"

Do you see the difference? Two people who I have known only for a small amount of time show more desire to make an effort to visit than most of the people I'd known for years.

Even if they never actually are able to make it all the way to California, the fact that they even want to is enough for me.

I think I am being reminded of what a good friend looks like.

We'll see.

*Shriek*

Midnight. Tuesday. September 15.

My roommate heads out to take a shower and says to me "If you're not in bed when I come back I will slap you!"

Five minutes later I am ready for bed and about to get into bed when I have an idea.

I get into her bed.

My other roommate calmly goes about cleaning the room.

5 minutes after my showering roommate returns, she still hasn't noticed me sleeping in her bed. She gets on her computer like she does all the time. Her desk just happens to be right below me. So, I lean over the side to spy on her. The bed creaks. She freaks. Both my other roommate and I have trouble not laughing out loud and pretty soon we have her convinced that she is psychotic.

When she keeps hearing the creaking of the bed as I move around she becomes convinced that she is not psychotic and that the bed is really going to fall down on top of her. Then I pop up and she shrieks. It wasn't a nice scream that people give you when you jump out at them. This was the kind of shriek the girls in horror movies give where it's so loud it's almost quiet and only lasts for a split second. Then she stands there with her hands over her mouth and we all laugh so hard it hurts.

Yes, I should have gone to sleep. But it was totally worth it. I only wish we'd been taping it. =[