Kingdom Hearts- Castles in the Sky

okay okay. I'm going to bed. This one is the one whose lyrics I posted. Yups. Just reliving the past a little here. Lemme know if you watched all three.

Kingdom Hearts - Castle in the Sky

Axel is the coolest ;P

Kingdom Hearts- CASTLES IN THE SKY REMIX

*taps foot* Catchy tune.. nice to bob head to ^_^

Not like I do that sort of thing, of course

Castle in the Sky

sung by Ian Van Dahl
Do you ever question your life?
Do you ever wonder why?
Do you ever see in your dreams..
all the castles in the sky.

Oh, tell me why...
do we build castles in the sky.
Oh, tell me why...
all the castles way up high.
Please tell me why
do we build castles in the sky.
Oh, tell me why...
all the castles way up high.

More on my Blatant Tan

"Hi!"
"Whoa! Since when were you so tan?"

He didn't even say hi back!!!

*dies laughing*

So, pretty much, today I held down two rooms by myself, while watching the other worker who was supposed to be helping me. HAHA.. how retarded. That's a good word for it. Retarded. That's just a cool word in general. Anyways, I put up all 50+ chairs and cleaned up both rooms by myself after all the kids had moved over. Guess who stayed to help me? Noone. HAHA again. Just as I was about to put up the last chair, J walks in, looks at me and frowns. "Did you put up all those by yourself?" I nodded. Lol. He had told the guys to come help me, but they didn't. When I walked into 29/30, J started talking to me really loud, thanking me for doing everything by myself. He hoped to hint at the guys. It didn't work. Duh. But it was funny all the same.

A lot happened today. And for once, even though I'm absolutely exhausted, I can think clearly. I don't think that's a good thing. Especially since I'm borderline angry. *evil grin*

Hey!

"Who's that white girl over there?"
*looks around* "What? Who? Where?"

lol..

Then,

"Since when were you so tan?"

haha.. I'm tan >.<

Scary

You know what's scary?

Having someone yell at you in Chinese and actually be able to understand.

Listening to someone talk on the phone in Chinese and understanding.

Being the only white person taking AP Chinese, even though most of the smarter Chinese students were too scared.

>.<

Skillz

Convincing people that I carry on conversations with llamas. That llama plays are awesome. And that I have an X-man friend who taught me how to communicate with them in the first place. Two of my friends informed me that if they did not know me as well as they do, they would have been convinced as well. Interesting quote:
"Are you serious?"
"Of course! I mean, who could make up so many interesting stories on the spot? come on!"

*dies laughing*


I own all at hide-n-seek. Once Sam and I pair up, we're indestructible. I sought with Sam the first game. That was super easy. I won the rest with her help. ;P Couldn't find me at all. Got close, but I've got mad skillz.. and Sam's a smooth talker. <3

ahh.. what a day.. what a night. I don't want to sleep.
Did 500 situps.. don't feel a thing. *thinks* maybe a little tired.. uh oh.

A Reason

There is a reason for everything I do or so.

True, you probably won't know what the honest reason is, but that's the whole point.

Think what you will, it makes things easier.

If you seek the truth, you will find it. It all depends on whether or not you have the right motives.

I always have a reason. It's just easier on us both if you forget that and continue to think what you wish.

Excerpts from a conversation

A- time spent talking is never wasted my dear

never

B- now, that, is a lie.

A- i think not

if people are sharing from their hearts what they think and feel

it is never a waste

B- sometimes it is.. when the other party does not want to listen.

when they merely resent you for what you have to say.

when you lose a friend in the process.

then, it's a waste of time and breath

a waste of energy

a waste of life.

Oops

I was wrong.. I've seen two superhero movies. One I saw only a few months ago.

Batman Begins
Xmen: The Last Stand

John Denver Lyrics.. again

"Its hard to tell the truth
When no one wants to listen
When no one really cares
Whats going on
And its hard to stand alone
When you need someone beside you
Your spirit and your faith
They must be strong"

Sacrifice

Not too long ago, I had a very short conversation with a friend about happiness and actions. My friend was unhappy, and I wanted him to be the opposite. I asked him if there was anything I could do to make him happy. He thoughtfully noted how dangerous that offer could be, especially if he were to ask me to do something I didn't want to do.

That is an interesting point. Too bad I don't care.

Let's see if I an make my reasoning a little clearer. God, in a sense, asked Himself "What can I do to make my people happy?" or.. "What can I do to save my people?" The answer is obvious. The only way he could help the ones he loves was to die on the cross. He did not care about the danger.. about the pain in dying. He did not care about his own discomfort. All he cared about was those he died to save.

If I have a friend in need, I shouldn't be thinking about my own personal comfort. If Christ can sacrifice himself for his friends, so can I.

"Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." ~John 15:13

Denseness

Sometimes life is like a wall. A really dense wall. At least, the wall is more like our minuscule human understanding. We are extremely dumb. In fact, extremely is an understatement. That fact just makes it even more amusing how arrogant people get about how much they know. All knowledge is controlled by God, He can take it away and give it as He wishes.

It's funny how dense and difficult everything seems when suddenly the answer is there. So easy, too! Sometimes I lose it.. see a glimpse, but then it is gone. Other times, like tonight, I successfully catch it.

I can totally imagine God laughing at the denseness of the humans he made as we scramble to gain understanding, never realizing where it all comes from.

New Book

Got a new book today, NOT from MrsK. ;P It's called the Celebration of Discipline, by Richard J. Foster, and is supposedly very famous.
I was told I am to read it and blog my thoughts.. ^_^

"One word of caution however, must be given at the outset: to know the mechanics does not mean that we are practicing the Disciplines. The Spiritual Disciplines are an inward and spiritual reality, and the inner attitude of the heart is far more crucial than the mechanics for coming into the reality of the spiritual life" (3).

I read that line at least five times and each time it hit home harder. Just because you know or say something is true, doesn't mean you obey it. Just because you claim to be a Christian doesn't automatically make you one- doesn't mean that you act like one. It kind of fits in with the theme of "hypocrisy." It doesn't really matter who you pretend to be, the truth is more evident than you realize.

And sadly, for some people, when the truth hits home, it hurts. I had a moment of realization very recently, not for me, but for another. I saw something I had never seen before.. but said nothing. I don't think it is my place to say anything.. not anymore.. not unless she asks. If she wants my opinion.. she will request it. Until then, I shall remain silent.


And now, daddy's laughing at me again for trying to make chocolate chip cookies without chocolate chips. >.<

*big sigh*

I feel like a failure. Not like it's anything new.. but annoying all the same.

And now I'm lost.. and don't know what to do.. don't know what to say.

It's like I'm completely helpless and can't do anything! Like I'm bashing my head against a wall.

Of course, if it were anyone else, I'd tell them to let go. But I'm not "anyone else"

making chocolate chip cookies without the chocolate chips. A definite sign that the end of school is approaching.

A guy referred to me as "baby" today. My immediate response: "Don't call me baby." He was only joking, of course.. I didn't even think about my response. When I paused to think about it.. I laughed. And I can think of at least two other people who will be laughing when they read this ;P

Before that, Debrr said.. "A penny for your thoughts." I told her no. My thoughts are definitely not for sharing. Especially not now. *shrugs* Not like they're that important anyways. No doubt frivolous, girly, airheadish thoughts. *innocent grin*

oi! I remembered!

This is what I ate today.. ^.^ I'm glad I'm safe at home so you cannot glare at me. teehee..

Breakfast- Cherry cobbler.. a little.
Lunch- Five small chips.. compliments of Janelle <3
I also helped Nate finish 5 chicken nuggets at like.. 5 PM. Now, it's dinner time.. and I don't think I'll eat much.

When you wake up every morning feeling nauseous.. and taking 15 minutes just to get out of bed because you're afraid that you'll throw up, you're more careful about how much you eat throughout the day.

In a strange, perverted way, it makes me thankful for my parents. 1. They are too busy to notice much, so they don't worry. 2. They're not asian, so they don't yell at me saying "Eat more!! Eat more!! You too skinny!!!"

L.O.L.

A certain friend of mine- "Thinking that if I had a tractor, it would be sexy."
My eyes definitely widened when I read that.

According to Kenneth, I have weird taste buds. Probably because I spent most of my childhood hanging out with guys. *duh*

I had something else to say, but I have forgotten. I suppose my day was stressful and tiring and all that.. but I'm relatively happy all the same.. I wonder how fast that will change.

Good day.
Great day.
Awesome day.
Fantastical day.

I laughed more than I cried.
The tides are turning.. things are changing.
Everything comes new with the dawn.

Very hot.. blame David.

For my asian friends.. Then again, non asians might be interested.. but it's really cool all the same ^.^

http://www.omniglot.com/writing/christish.htm

"But since we're all Chinese in here, we don't have that problem!"

Needless to say, I'm the only.. and I mean ONLY.. white person at my church in my grade level. In fact, no non-asian comes even close to my grade level at church. HA!

"Why is it that men assume that women are only impressed by a combination of brains and brawn?... they're right, of course."

That movie had a nasty ending... blech.

3 Months
27 Days
13 Hours

3 Months
27 Days
19.5 Hours

All I want from you all is a big hug and your love and friendship.
My parents will most likely be getting me the other thing I want- a cross necklace.

Movies

This summer.. I need to see:

Pirates of the Carribean 3
Amazing Grace


I think that's it.

3 months 29 days

Life is so full.

Full of good things, and full of bad things.

Full of questions, and full of answers.

At this point, I'm seeking answers.. reevaluating my life and making necessary changes.

My level of exhaustion doesn't help either.

Honestly, I'm walking a thin balance.

A balance where I push my true feelings and the things I really want to say to the back of my mind in order to maintain a semblance of peace.

True, I may seem down and depressed, but I'm just tired, so don't worry. I'm just fine. Absolutely wonderful. Just thoughtful. Aching, yes. In pain, yes. But fine.

"Good night, I'll see you in the funny pages."

aww.. what a beautiful day! Simply wonderful ^.^

All sorts of good things happened..

*innocent grin*

I was walking to class this morning when one of the girls who is in the Afterschool program stopped me. She said something I couldn't quite make out. She repeated it, twice, before I finally got it.

"You're pretty."

I probably blushed, I was kinda dazed. I smiled, said thank you, and we returned to our separate paths.

Most of my day progressed like that. People I knew would look at me weird and make comments like, "You're pretty," "Wow, you have beautiful hair," or "You should wear your hair down!"

I think, without that start to my day, I would not have been able to survive. Most of the rest was a series of pain. Now then, don't be alarmed. It's no biggie. Pain is a part of life.